A place in dirt !

"It started when he opened up his eyes this gloomy morning" it's just one of his bad days ! the taste of blood is sensible in his mouth with his frightened wild eyes staring at the ceiling begging to be abused . no sun in the sky , no appetite to eat ! he wears up his incomplete brain and runs out for a cigarette . something has changed last night when he was aching all over in his lonely room . a decision that had to be decided long ago was well clear to him . hmmmmm ... ! the hunger of flying and selling his last breath to this cruel world . The mother is sad ! she died in his dreams last night ... ! she died of cancer . he's walking on the alley of nauseatation having his older sister's high heels on for the first time . his every breath seems to be his last so he takes it even much deeper than when his heart got attached by the man he met while he was swiming in the ocean of his fantasies  . numbness in his face , no hope in his eyes ! the thought of his childhood hunts his happines and throws it to the garbage the same way his father did when he had his makeups on and you could see the beam of  mirth in his eyes . Today he's gonna rape everyone , his father will be the first one . he's even gonna rape himself with the help of the height ... ! One , two , three , three , three ... . getting close and closer to the dangerous summit of his mind . he's had the vanillashake and the meeting with his friends for the last time . Ten ! Right standing on the point of his slippery head Ready to fall him self down to his non exsisting smallest toe of his right foot and that's exactly when even the thought of death becomes worthless to his tearing eyes . AND THAT'S WHEN I PUKE ON THE CARPET !!

Don't cry for me (U.S.A)

Yes , you might think it strange the way i try to explain how i feel !

It's unbelievable , it's sad . All u will get the chance to see is a boy you've never known before although he's dressed up he's every single moment knowing how precious it feels like dressing like you'r blond haired female prostitute in that old bar on Fifth avenue .

But i had to make a change couldn't stay all my life down on my knees . Stayed out of sun lookin' outside the Window ! "So I chose freedom

Running around, trying everything new

But nothing impressed me at all

I never expected it to"

Don't cry for me NY All through my wild days and my mad existence ...         I kept my promise don't keep you'r distance !

The fame and fortune That's always been invited in seemd to the world They were all i desired ! But they were all Illusions not the solutions were expected . "The answer was always prisoned in my heart" I LOVE YOU AND HOPE YOU LOVE ME ................................

Don't cry for me sanctimonious land .

Was is too much ? Just look at me now and you'll see that every word is true ...

Blind Eyes In The Cafe' !

IT's Starting All Over Again But It's Like It's Annoying Me So Softly For The Very 1st Time ! It's Just Like I Drink From An Empty Glass Or Something As Hot as The First French Coffee I Had . It Burns Me But My Hands Are Freezing ! I Feel The Blood Pressure InSide My Heart But It Feels Like Winter's Cold Wind Blowing Into My Eyes ! It's Blind But It's True . Really Does Clothes Turn A Man Into a Real GentleMan Or a Queen Into a Miner ? Hih ! The Wooden Stairs To Run On , The Shame In The Boy's Wild Eyes . Or The Body HairS And The Nails Polish ! Is It Just What I Think ? Is It Just a Dream Or Is It The Fact I've Spent All My Life To feel ? Really , How Does IT feel Smoking In Cold Air While You Know SOMETHING Beats So Fast Up There When It Hears Something That's Been Expected All These Years While I Was Alone Crying In a Lonely Cold bed ! Maybe What I Need Is a Cold Cold Cold And Steamy Shower OR Something Rude And Gross To Make Me feel Safe While I'm Snoozing On Because I Hate It Soft 'n Smooth . No , It's a Fantasy Coming True Just Because I LOVE YOU !

Undenied ...

Your softly spoken words
Release my whole desire
Undenied
Totally

And so bare is my heart, I can’t hide
And so where does my heart, belong

Beneath your tender touch
My senses can’t divide
Ohh so strong
My desire

For so bare is my heart, I can’t hide
And so where does my heart, belong

Now that I’ve found you
And seen behind those eyes
How can i
Carry on

For so bare is my heart, I can’t hide
And so where does my heart, belong

Belong         Belong ...

DoberHuman's Dream ...

Who's Gon' Protect me From What I Want ? Do You Think I'm Wild Enough To Fight For my Dreams ?es , I'm Wild As a Tedy Bear . Heh ! Just Kidding SO RUNAWAY BEFORE I EAT YOU LIKE A DOBERMAN ! What ?!!?!?! A Doberman ?!?!?? YESSSSS , Just Like One . He's Got Long Legs And He's Smart 'n Hungry So I Love itttttttttttt !!! Yeah The Only Thing I Love In This world Is a Doberman ! I'm Gonna Paint Myself Like a Maniac Dog In my Nightmares Tonight ! Then It'd Be Like I Can Only Be Submited For My Owner And The Only One Who I Love Would Be Him . How Wonderful Life Is when u Are a Doberman . I Believe I Was Talking About my Dreams ! But Now My Dreams Are Limited In a Dog's Head . What's The Difference Betwen Being Me And a Doberman ? Huh ? Let me Think ...                           ! Do u Think Dobermans Like "ABBA" , Or mmm "Marilyn Manson" ?!?!? offf What am i Saying ? What's The Analogy Between "ABBA" 'n "Marilyn manson" ?!! Ha ha .... ! Being Which One Do u Think Can Bring My Dreams True ? A CockSucker Or a Doberman Wich Loves Cock ?...

PRIDE ...

Burnin' Books , breakin' Windows , fadin' Memories , Fallin' Lights , Emotion Voice , Loud Scream , Runnin' Tears . This is What u Have To be For Winning My Love Back Though I Still Kill My Moments For u'r Eyes !

Chaotic Heartbeats , Afraid Eyes , Tired Lips , Numb Legs , Suspicious Attitude , Naked Thoughts , So Fucking Desperate . This is What I Have To be To Let U Win My Love Back Again Though I Know U Still Think What a Great Kisser I Might be !

I CAN'T BE A LOSER THOUGH I STILL FILL THE  EMPTINESS IN MY HEART BY DREAMING OF U !


Where Do u Think This Love Is Taking Us ?
There's Just One Fog Left Here Among My Hesitations ! DID U EVER LOVE ME ?
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Devil inside !

Everybody wants me to be their angel
Everybody wants something they can cradle
They don't know I burn
Maybe there's a devil or something like it inside Jealous angel deep inside me
You don't know cuz you're too busy reading labels
You're missing all the action underneath my table
I'm waiting for my turn
Just waiting for my turn
Time to make it burn
This is how I burn ...